
I’m blessed that I have been asked to
write this blog post. Is writing a blog post a “usual” for me?
Heck no! In fact, when they asked me to do it, my first thought was
“no way”. I can’t even speak in proper sentences most of the
time, let alone, write in them. God’s plan, often times, does not
coincide with MY plan. Does this play out much the same for you?
I have been so challenged, by God,
since joining the Crosspoint family. Was it the change in church? A
new Pastor? New friends? After many months of thinking about this,
I think I have the answer. The change has been ME! Ding, ding,
ding…..Kandice is finally getting it! I’m not saying that all
the above mentioned didn’t play a HUGE role, I’m saying that no
matter what the Band-Aid covered, God still had to fix the underlying
problem…..ME.
I can be the first to tell you that
when God moves you, it isn’t really all that comfortable. I can
almost picture him pushing me forward, raising my hand for me, and
nodding my head in a “yes” answer. It is un-nerving to this
Type-A kinda girl. Wait, wait, wait…..you mean I’m not running
this show????
Does God call the qualified to do HIS
work? Does he call the “all-together” girls? No, he calls you
and me sister, just like we are. Remember, he knows what we are made
of. And just an FYI to those of you not on board…..none of us are
“all together”, and HE loves us just the way HE created us!
God has recently called me (and no it
wasn’t that easy to discern) to speak out loud. Whaaatttt? Yep,
me-the girl who has been deeply, and quietly in fear of group
settings, and public speaking. I’ve been obedient, even while
kicking and screaming, and looking for an exit door. I have said
“sure I’ll do it” when every ounce of me wanted to break the
phone, move away, or get a sudden case of….well anything really bad
and bed worthy. But I didn’t, girls. I obeyed. I obeyed for once
in my life. I turned my cheek when God had tried to pull me out of
dark night clubs, I’ve turned my cheek when God was pulling my hand
away from the bad men, I’ve plugged my ears and stomped the ground
when he asked me to stop shoving bad food down my throat….but this
time ladies….this time…… I looked straight up, into our
Father’s eyes, arms wide-open and said, “Yes, Father, I will
follow your lead. Yes, Father, I know that you are totally aware of
my gifts and you want to use them. Yes, Father I am yours…use me
for your Kingdom!” Easy? Nope! Comfortable? Not in the least!
OBEDIENCE! Yikes…..nail biting, foot
tapping, tantrum throwing…yikes! In Luke 6:46 it says (and this is
so tough for me to even type)….”Why do you call me, ‘Lord,
Lord,’ and do not do what I say?” Read it again girls….and
again….and again. What are you being called to do? Take your
fingers out of your ears, peel apart your glued-shut eyes, and just
listen, and whatever you do, don’t EVER think it will be
comfortable!