Hello! My name is Carolyn Judge. I'm married to a great man and have 2 awesome kids. I love to run and watch football. I teach first grade and could never see myself doing anything else (but who knows).
When I got saved I had just finished college and I had no clue what God would be doing in my life. It's amazing to see how everything can change in an instant. I remember before Jesus how my mindset was; well I'm only hurting myself. Funny how you don't realize how your actions actually do affect those around you. I was doing all sorts of crazy stuff. There was no way that I would be able to stop any of that on my own. The moment I had Jesus in my heart all of that just melted away. I love that!
Actually I wanted to talk about trusting God. I am one of those people that love to control things. If my husband is driving I am great passenger driver. In my mind I just think that I know a better or faster way. Now that I look back on it, it was me leading and God following. God couldn't use me until I was humbled. Well my family has been through several cases of sickness lately. This is tough for me. I can give my kids the medicine and take them to the doctor, but in the middle of the night I realized I had no control. There was nothing I could do. My daughter had pneumonia and as I was sitting with her, I gave her sickness over to God. It was in his hands. I am always amazed at God working in me. I know this should have been something I should have learned a long time ago, but I didn't. Maybe I did know, but over time I took over again. Being able to humble myself and ask God to take over was huge. I think of 1Peter 5:6-7, “Therefore humble yourself under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you.” If I can let him take control of my sick daughter then I can definitely let him take over the lesser things in my life. When something goes awry at work I know that is God in control. When we had an almost broken water heater I knew He was in control. My daughter got sick again and I knew He was in control.
Since that time some amazing things have happened in my life, big and little. I know they wouldn't be possible if I was in charge. I don't even think as big as he does. So if you are a control freak you are only limiting God. Let him take control and watch in amazement.