I remember well when my parents purchased a different car. I was devastated, sad, crying because I did not want to change vehicles. It seems silly now, but to a young child it was a real experience of sadness. Changes continue to be one of my biggest challenges of my life. It is a process that does not feel good, is not exciting and can be very depressing for me.
In 1986 my husband and I made the decision to move from Oregon to Texas. The job market was not doing well and I was a “stay at home” mom with our two little boys. The move proved to be long and difficult. I was no longer in the company of my parents and sisters. New friends, new church, new location was all very overwhelming. Jobs finally came into place for both of us. I experienced depression and emotional upset that lasted many months. My feelings added stress not only to my life but to the well being of our marriage. I was continually looking forward to the time when we could move back and life would be “normal” again.
We stayed in the same church for over twenty years. It was my life line to my family at home….the denomination of my youth. My husband and I both had both attended the college sponsored by our church. All four of our children also graduated from the church sponsored schools. The whole experience brought security of my past.
Four years ago we started to attend Crosspoint. My husband made the decision to leave our other church and I reluctantly followed. The whole process was very difficult, much like previous experiences.
Jesus has spoken to me through this entire experience. He has to be my family, my security and focus. He is the only one that can fill my every need. He is the only “constant” in my life. He is the answer to all adjustments. He uses this experience for me to run to him only.
Recently I found a very special verse. “…..he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us.” Acts 17:26-27
*Just this week I had some of my “Crosspoint sisters” to my home for dinner. My heart was full of peace and contentment. What a blessing this has been in my faith walk. God is good!!!!